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Dear Michael,
This is the first time I write to u in English. Cz today is one year anniversary of ur passing away. Cz today is a day that I should always remember and cry. Cz today I told a white lie to some people. I sincerely ask for your understanding and forgiveness, which u r sure to give as usual.
Yes, I went to the church this morning and talked to some nice people. I had a strong feeling to go there. I don't know why. A very strong power was pushing me to and I was so happy to do so. At least, I just wanted to say RIP to u with the support of Lord and wish u everthing fine in Heaven. I did. But it was really a tough thing to explain to them that the man I cried and mourned for today is YOU, an artist abroad. A mind delighter leading the way to the future. But ...murdered...Never defeated, but killed...A Christian but gone too soon ...How could I make myself clear? How could they understand? How?
So I said, it was my friend. Not boy friend or husband staff...Just a friend. Died in an accident without any signs to his family, his friends and all the people around who love and care. Is it a lie? Maybe yes...But it is a white one, Michael, you know. I couldn't conceal my sadness at that time, esp. when they began to say prayers for u, I burst into tears. They saw that and they were silent, kind enough to stop asking questions about you. I was grateful, really. For their trust in me. For their sympathy. For their wide opened minds and hearts wth love and care to help people they really don't know. And ...For u. Bcz of u, I have got some awareness of how to carry on. With love and hope. For the whole year since last Jun.25th, I have been insisting on fighting against the bad fortunes of all kinds. You have changed my life and what a nice thing that it is full again. Full of u. Only u. I am always speechless when I read ur mind between lines. I can't stop crying over all the hurt and unfairness the world has done to u. I was told the true meaning of life ahead and it is a luck that I turn back to the traditional values, which I had once been totally confused with but u always believe in and hold on, .
Thx, Michael. King of Pop. You r my king. My teacher. My elder brother. I love you and miss you so much. How is ur life in Heaven? I suppose Lord is with u all the time and u r blessed forever, remembered by all the man kind on earth in the hisitory.Past, present and future. Let me try to follow ur steps and go on searching for what I originally wanted. I will be there too years after. You will be there for me, right? Just as what u sang, in the deepest despair, in the darkest hours, I still care. I will never let u part. For u r always in my heart.
Sorry, Michael...I lied...but it's all for love.
I LOVE YOU. God bless u.
Charlotte Brook
fr China
June. 26, 2010 |
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