【完整版高清视频】DateLine:杰克逊私人录音带(MJ说：孩子救了我)新增中文对白

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4L：追逐童年

Michael Jackson是一个从未有过童年的男人，他似乎花了大部分的成年时光追逐那段岁月。如果可以，他告诉SB，他愿意永远是个孩子。

Michael Jackson：我愿意回到孩童时期，永远不长大，就像彼得潘（Peter Pan）。

事实上，就在27岁，当Thriller专辑高居榜首时，流行之王还是和爸爸妈妈住在一起。

Michael Jackson：我觉得自己还是一个小孩子，我还没长大呢。我还是一个小男孩，不想离家。我心里真是这么想的。

最后当他搬出去，Michael Jackson还像个孩子似的 —— 一个有名的例子就是他把自己的大牧场命名为“梦幻庄园”（Neverland） —— 在那儿他置身于欢笑的孩子中间，喜欢玩捉迷藏之类的游戏。

Michael Jackson：我在所有孩子的身上看到了美丽。对我而言，他们都是美丽的。正因如此，我爱他们。
SB：他想过一种普通人的生活。但对他而言，“普通人”就意味着回到童年时期。如果他能建立梦幻庄园、开跑车，可以爬单杠、坐旋转木马，做这些童年做不了的事，他就会从中获得满足。

但流行之王和孩子间关系背后真正的目的却带来令人不安的问题，这使得梦幻庄园是一块纯真与黑暗碰撞的地方。

SB：他不想谈论那些，那给他带来巨大的痛苦。一旦谈到那些，他会说那是个谎言 —— 彻头彻尾的谎言。

Jackson在录音带上大篇幅、公开谈论的，是他对孩子们深深的同情，告诉SB他无法看到孩子们受苦。

Michael Jackson：可能是在一个电影院里，还是在一间商店，我听到有人斥责他们的孩子，我受不了，哭了起来，因为这让我想起自己小时侯的遭遇。我哭了 —— 当下就不行了，颤抖、痛哭。我受不了这些，太痛苦了。

Jackson不只是爱孩子，他告诉SB，他需要他们 —— 因为他们是他的慰藉、救星。

Michael Jackson：我从孩子们的眼中看到了幸福和快乐。他们拯救了我，所以我要回报他们（开始哭泣）。他们救了我，Shmuley，不是开玩笑。
Meredith Vieira:他说孩子们简直救了他的命，是什么意思？
SB：那是他唯一可以活下去的东西。他已经实现了自己全部的梦想，成了百万富翁，但那些并不能使他开心。可以这么讲，他成了全球最著名的一张脸，但那并没让他快乐。唯一能让他快乐的，就是从自己缺失的童年中吸取教训，教导别人要珍惜孩子。这才是他的意图。

Jackson有一个最大的目标 —— 告诉SB，他似乎认为自己是天父，拥有治愈病童的力量。

SB：你是否认为上帝给了你某种治愈的力量？
Michael Jackson：是的，孩子们让我沐浴在爱中。他们想要抚摸我、拥抱我，根本不想松手，哭着不肯走。妈妈们也会把她们的孩子放在我的怀抱中：“摸摸我的孩子，抱抱他们，摸摸我的孩子，摸摸我的孩子。”
Meredith Vieira:他把自己当成了救世主，拥有治愈的力量。
SB：他对我说：“我要奉献自己的一生帮助孩子们，这是唯一重要的事情。”我说：“你可以帮助他们，但你不是他们家长，别把自己当作孩子的救世主。”

2000年8月，Jackson邀请SB和他的家庭来梦幻庄园玩。同时，一个患了癌症的13岁小男孩，也受到邀请。

Michael Jackson：每次我和他讲话，他的精神状态都会更好点。
SB：你在治愈他，不只是讲话而已吗？
Michael Jackson:我是在治愈他。他说：“我需要你，Michael。”然后他就叫我：“爸爸。”我说：“你最好问问你爸爸，征得他的同意。”他说：“爸爸，我能叫Michael‘爸爸’吗？”（笑）他爸爸说：“没问题，随便你。”（笑）。孩子们总是那么做，我不想家长吃醋，有时候有的爸爸会觉得不爽。最后孩子们都很喜欢我。有时这会给我带来麻烦，但我都会去帮助他们的。

三年后，那个男孩指控Michael Jackson在他在梦幻庄园过夜期间对他进行了骚扰。虽然Jackson在14周的审讯后最终被判无罪，但这场指控却使Jackson的名声永远蒙受了耻辱。

Meredith Vieira:你去梦幻庄园，你在那儿，那个孩子也在那儿。
SB：没错。
Meredith Vieira:那你有发现什么古怪异常的地方吗？
SB：没有，我没发现有什么不妥的。

Shmuley说，这个歌手不断地强调和否认1993年发生的类似的指控，当时也是一个13岁的小男孩，他曾与Jackson全球旅行，后来提起了一桩针对Jackson的民事诉讼。

Meredith Vieira: 鉴于他对孩子的吸引力和关注，你相信他是清白的吗？
SB：我不知道。我最确定的是他不是坏人。他可能做过一些不可原谅的事，但那绝不至使他变成一个坏人。

孩子们吸引着流行之王，面对女人他却常常害羞而尴尬，接下来你将听到他谈论自己跟名流约会和迷恋的故事，从麦当娜到波姬小丝到戴安娜王妃。

chunye

谢谢辛苦的翻译@！

blackandy

---------Part 4英语原文----------
If Michael Jackson was a man who never had a childhood, he seemed to spend most of his adulthood chasing it. If he could, he told the rabbi, he would stay a child forever.

Michael Jackson: I would love to come back as as a child that never grows old, like Peter Pan.

In fact, even at age 27, when “Thriller” was topping the charts, the King Of Pop was still living at home with Mom and Dad.


Michael Jackson: I thought I was still this little kid.  It's not time for me to go yet.  I said I'm still a boy.  I'm not supposed to leave home yet.  I really felt that in my heart.

And when he did finally move out, Michael Jackson remained as childlike as ever -- famously naming his ranch "Neverland"  -- a place where he surrounded himself with laughing children, and relished playing games like hide-and-go seek.

Michael Jackson: I see beauty in all children. They all beautiful to me.  They're so beautiful and I love them all -- equally.

SB: He wanted to have an ordinary life. But for him, ordinary meant reversing to his childhood.  That if he could just build Neverland and have rides, which he didn't have when he was a kid.  If he could just have monkey bars and merry-go-rounds, which he didn't have when he was a kid, that he would heal.

But Neverland was a place where innocence and darkness would collide as the real motives behind the King Of Pop's connection to children raised unsettling questions.

SB: He didn't like talking about that. That was very painful for him. To the extent that he talked about it, he would say that it was a lie-- it was a lie.

What Jackson does talk openly about on tape -- at great length - is his deep empathy for children, telling the rabbi he can't bear to see them suffer.

Michael Jackson: It can be in a movie or I could be in a department store and I'll hear someone arguing at their child, I break down and cry.  Because it reflects how I was treated when I was little.  I cry -- I break down at that moment and I shake and I cry.  I can't take it.  It's hard.

Jackson didn't just love children, he told the rabbi. He needed them -- they were his refuge, his saviors.

Michael Jackson: The happiness and the joy that I see in the eyes of the children.  They give me-- they saved my life so I want to, give it back [starts crying]. They saved me, Shmuley.  I'm not joking.

Meredith Vieira: He says children have literally saved his life.  What did he mean?

SB: That it's the only thing left he has to live for.  He had achieved all his dreams.  He'd become a billionaire, but that didn't make him happy.  He had become the most recognizable face on earth, arguably, but that didn't make him happy.  The only thing that did was to learn from the pain of his absent childhood, to teach others that children are precious.  And that gave him purpose.  

But it was a mission Jackson seemed to take to an extreme -- even telling the rabbi he sees himself as a universal father who has the power to heal sick children.

SB:  Do you feel that God gave you a certain healing power?

Michael Jackson: Yes. And I've seen children just shower all over me with love.  They want to just touch me and hug me and completely just hold on and cry and not let go. And mothers pick their babies and put them into my arms.  "Touch my baby, and hold them, touch my baby, touch my baby."  

Meredith Vieira: He did see himself as somewhat of a Messiah, with healing powers

SB: He would say to me, "I want to devote my whole life to helping kids, that's the only thing that's important to me." And I would say, "You can help kids. But you're not their parent. Stop believing you're the child's Messiah."

In august of 2000, Jackson invited SB and his family to Neverland. At the very same time, a young boy, a 13-year-old cancer patient, was also visiting.

Michael Jackson: Every time I talk to him, he is in a better spirit.

SB: You're healing him, not just speaking to him?

Michael Jackson: I KNOW I'm healing him. He says, "I need you Michael."  Then he calls me "Dad."  I go, "You better ask your Dad if it is OK for you to call me that."  He goes, "Dad, is it OK if I call Michael 'Dad?'" [laughs] And he says, "Yeah, no problem, whatever you want." [laughs]. Kids always do that and I always feel that I don't want the parents to get jealous that it happens sometimes and it rubs fathers in a strange way. And the kids end up just falling in love with my personality.  Sometimes it gets me into trouble, you know, but I'm just there to help.

Three years later, that boy would accuse Michael Jackson of molesting him during that sleepover visit to Neverland. And though Jackson was ultimately vindicated after a 14-week trial, the charges would forever tarnish Jackson's name.

Meredith Vieira: You went to Neverland. You were there when that boy was there.

SB: Correct.

Meredith Vieira: Did you ever see anything untoward?  Did you get the feeling there's something odd here?

SB: No, I never saw anything.



And, Shmuley says, the singer had repeatedly -- and emphatically -- denied similar allegations lodged against him in 1993, when another 13-year-old boy who had traveled around the world with Jackson filed a civil suit against him.

Meredith Vieira: All of the attraction that he had to children, and the attention that he paid to children, you believe all of it was innocent?

SB: I don't know. What was certainly true is that he wasn't a monster. He may have done something that was unforgiveable even, but that didn't make him a monster.

If the King Of Pop was drawn to children, he was often shy and awkward with women, as you'll hear in candid revelations about his celebrity dates, and crushes, from Madonna to Brooke Shields to Princess Diana.

注：Schmuley Boteach的缩写为SB.为方便文字的撰写特用缩写代替之。

blackandy

---------Part 6英语原文----------

He talked about vanishing.

Michael Jackson: I would like to- some kind of way disappear, where people don't see me anymore.

His fear of growing old...


Michael Jackson: I just don't want to look old and start forgetting.

And hauntingly, his own death.

Michael Jackson: When the body breaks down, and you start to wrinkle, I think it's so bad.

Rabbi Shmuley: So you would die before that happens?

Michael Jackson: Uh.. I don't want to grow old.

Rabbi Shmuley:  You don't want to die young?

Michael Jackson:  Um, you're asking me an interesting question.  You sure you want my answer?

He couldn't stand the thought of himself with gray hair --   and at 42, Michael Jackson was already fixated on his final resting place.

Michael Jackson: I want to be buried right where there's children. I would feel safer that way. I want them next to me. I need their spirit.

Meredith Vieira: There are a number of comments that Michael made to you in these tapes that in light of his premature death are-- are eerie.

Rabbi Shmuley: Michael said to me constantly, "If I can't help kids, then I will find a way to terminate my life."  

Meredith Vieira: Did he have a death wish?

Rabbi Shmuley: He lost the will to live.  Did that mean that he consciously wanted to die?  Probably not. I think he was just going through the motions of life toward the end and medicating away almost any kind of human response.

In 2001, after counseling Michael Jackson for two years -- and capturing 30 hours of his innermost thoughts on tape-- Rabbi Shmuley cut ties with the star.

He says the King Of Pop was slipping from his reach, so lured by the pull of fame --  and the seduction of pain numbing drugs  -- that he completely lost interest in their philanthropic projects.

Rabbi Shmuley: For two years, I really felt that I was making headway in helping Michael restructure his life, but once I saw that Michael was treating my advice as if I were a nuisance. I had to end our relationship. Was I gonna applaud as he slowly self-immolated? If I'm just another someone who's afraid to tell him that he's got to stop doing drugs, then what was I doing there?

Meredith Vieira: But was there a part of you, as a rabbi, as somebody who had explored his deepest pain with him, who felt, I'm deserting him?

Rabbi Shmuley: If I had gone back, Meredith, not only would I not have helped him, I would have been dragged into that destructive vortex, and I would have needed help.

To the rabbi, the tragic writing was already on the wall. In 2004, he stated publicly that he feared the worst.

Rabbi Shmuley: That Michael will be dead in a few years. He is headed toward Elvis, Marilyn Monroe, Janice Joplin.  It's almost inescapable.  

Still, the rabbi was devastated, when at age 50, Michael Jackson did suddenly die.

Meredith Vieira: Your initial reaction to his death was anger.

Rabbi Shmuley: My first reaction was, you stupid, stupid man, how could you do this? How could you orphan your children? Your children have no mother.  

Meredith Vieira: Is that what hurt you most, the fact that he is not there to father his children anymore?

Rabbi Shmuley: What hurt me most is that Michael threw away his life, and God endowed this special man with talent that the rest of us could only dream of.  Why did it have to end tragically?

Michael Jackson: I want to always be youthful and have the energy to run around and play hide and seek, which is one of my favorite games.

It is Michael Jackson's own voice, his own words, his deeply personal revelations - that now make the rabbi hopeful that in some way America can make sense of his death, that we can learn something.

Rabbi Shmuley: Michael's life demands redemption.  You can't have someone die at 50 from an overdose and not try to learn some moral lesson.

Michael Jackson: I wanted to become such a wonderful performer that I would get loved back. I was hoping I could get love from other people.

Shmuley believes the book, and the tapes, will help the public see in Jackson a tragic example of what happens when the scars of neglect never heal.

Rabbi Shmuley: A world renowned superstar invites the public into the pain of his childhood, so that parents would learn from that they will now truly understand the horrors that were visited on him.

Meredith Vieira: But forgive me Rabbi, some people are gonna look at the book and say "Well, wait a minute, the book comes out after Michael Jackson has died, but you profit off the book.

Rabbi Shmuley: Well Meredith, let's remember. I've written 21 books, so publishing books is what I do. This book earned a modest advance. Much of the proceeds are gonna be used for organizations that promote family and values. This book is a redemptive book, and it's a beautiful book.


Michael Jackson: I've seen the worst, the nightmare of the human condition, the human soul, of what I would never even think common man would be capable of behaving in such a way.

Meredith Vieira: When you hear his voice now, when you play those tapes over, what do you hear in that voice?

Rabbi Shmuley: It's the saddest thing in the world.  A man trying to break through this-- this cage.  A man trying to break through the people's perception, the fame, saying, "I'm a person."

Rabbi Shmuley:  You're not angry at God, you're not angry at the world?

Michael Jackson:  I'm not angry -- I'm very, taken by it. I'm hurt. I cry an awful lot.

Michael Jackson: I think all my success and fame and - I've wanted it, I've wanted it because I wanted to be loved.  That's all.

Michael Jackson's tapes leave us clues, but like other tragic icons before him, questions will linger for years about the broken soul behind the mask.

© 2009 MSNBC Interactive. Reprints

maryruan

看过后，觉得美国媒体现在仍然对MIKE有着极大的偏见，总是在以一种偏执的恶意解读MIKE的话！
真是讨厌之极。。。
PS：所以，美国的迈迷应该更辛苦吧？！

YILISA

谢谢 分享  谢谢 谢谢

badthriller

3L：我需要爱

他可能是最著名的人物了 —— 受到全球歌迷的模仿、爱慕和崇拜。但是Michael Jackson和SB的对话展现了其不为人知的一面，被父亲的无视深深伤害，所以他最渴求的就是爱。

Michael Jackson:我想成为一个优秀的表演者，这样就能得到人们的爱了。
SB：你认为自己如果变为成功的超级巨星，受到世界的爱戴，那你的爸爸也就会爱你了？
Michael Jackson:嗯。
SB：你就能改变他了。
Michael Jackson:嗯。我希望自己可以从其他人那里得到爱。我太需要它了，你知道吗？
SB：一个全球知名的成功人士说：“不是因为我爱音乐，不是因为我爱舞蹈，而是因为我太孤独了。”
Meredith Vieira：SB，你是怎么判定他不是对你编了个借口？“噢，我之所以会这样，是因为我爸爸对我太苛刻了”？
SB：你不该怀疑事情的真实性。他在录音过程中哭了好多次，有几次甚至哭得上气不接下气。这是他第一次真正的自白。

坦诚得让人惊讶 —— 是你从未听过的心声 —— Michael Jackson直面种族问题。他相信自己对白人歌迷巨大的吸引力使自己比之前的黑人明星遭受了更大的非议。

Michael Jackson：贝拉方特（Belafonte）、萨米（Sammy）、南金科尔（Nat King Cole），人们喜欢他们的音乐，但他们却得不到赞颂，没人为他们哭喊。我是第一个打破坚冰、打破陈规的人，那些白人女孩，苏格兰女孩、爱尔兰女孩大喊：“我爱你，我要怎样怎样。”那给白人媒体很大的刺激，他们不想那样，于是就开始编造故事。“他是怪人。”“他是同性恋。”“他睡在高压舱。”“他要买象人骨。” —— 编一切可编的让人们讨厌我，他们真是卯足了劲。

除了指责媒体的种族主义，Jackson还讲了几个关于丑陋的种族主义的故事，这些事盘绕在他的家族头顶，阴魂不散，当时他已经是超级巨星了。

Michael Jackson：我的母亲 —— 当时她正从超市出来，那里离我在艾西诺的家只有一条街，她开着梅赛德斯。一个白人在车里对她吼道：“滚回非洲去，你这个黑鬼。”这么对待一个母亲真是太让我难过了。还有一次，我的兄弟们开着劳斯莱斯去办事，到了那儿，下车、锁上门，等他们回去时，却发现车子被一群过路人给刮花了。
SB：就因为那是黑人的车吗？
Michael Jackson：就因为是黑人开劳斯莱斯。我讨厌这种事，因为一个人的肤色与他的品质毫无关联。

尽管成为了最有影响力的艺人之一，Jackson说他还是无法理解为什么媒体不肯放过他，哪怕他写了诸如“地球之歌”（earth song）的歌谣，致力于让这个世界更美好。

Michael Jackson：我是世界的友好使者，一直在传播这个信息：我们满世界地转、国与国签定协议，是在治愈世界吗？我就不明白干嘛非得唱和性有关的：“我要和你一起洗澡，我要和你来回摩擦。”但这么一来，我倒被媒体抨击为怪人了。
Michael Jackson：媒体，他们持刀以待，真的……
SB：等着看你失败？
Michael Jackson：是的，他们想要我身败名裂。因为当你成为销量最好的艺人，当你打破记录，他们就等好了。你成为他们的靶子。打倒他、抓住他！你懂我的意思吗？

他对SB打开了话匣子，Jackson听起来有点陶醉。

Michael Jackson：看我的演出，就像经历一场宗教洗礼。当你进去时是一个人，出来后就变成另一个人了。

但更多时候，他极度的痛苦悲伤。这位巨星成年后做了整形手术，也承认讨厌自己的原貌。

Michael Jackson：我在电脑上看过，感觉很糟。
SB：为什么？
Michael Jackson：我看起来像蜥蜴，觉得很可怕。我不喜欢那样，一点不喜欢。所以我不愿意拍照或被人看到，我就推着自己做了那些。
Michael Jackson：我不想变老，我讨厌变老，Shmuley。
Meredith Vieira: 他不想看到镜中的自己满脸皱纹，他有一大堆让自己操劳的事情。他有和你谈整形手术吗？
SB：我劝他别做了。他对我发誓会的，但实际上没有。

Jackson还和SB谈到一些关于饮食的烦心事 —— 承认在危险之旅期间，他的好友伊丽莎白泰勒（Elizabeth Taylor）简直是在逼他吃饭。

Michael Jackson：我不想吃，她就拿了汤匙，喂到我嘴里。
SB：真的？
Michael Jackson：每当我难过或受伤时，就不想吃。吃到食物，我就 —— 后来就晕过去了。然后他们就静脉注射，当我崩溃的时候，就不想吃东西。

接着谈到药物问题。尽管Shmuley说他从未见Jackson使用过它们，但他的确告诉过这位巨星他很关注 —— 尤其一个医生曾抱怨Jackson要了一堆足以杀死一匹马的药。

SB：他医好了所有的毛病。当一个人慢慢变成一家行走的药房，很明显，Michael主要是为了逃避寂寞。

回到2001年，Michael Jackson陷入深深的绝望。事实上，唯一让他坚持下去的，就是他对孩子们的爱。

SB：是什么给了你坚持下去的力量呢？
Michael Jackson：相信孩子们，相信年轻人，相信上帝给了我坚持下去的理由，帮助孩子们。

他却不知道不久后这种信念 —— 因为一个孩子 —— 会招致指控，而这次将永远使他的事业蒙尘。

denise19580829

单纯的迈，向这只秃鹰说啥了？

lilimo

迈克被伤害得太深了。如果在他的生命中出现戴安娜王妃那样的，会不会不一样呢？丽莎大慨是被她那个种族主义的妈劝别生的。

clmouse

5# blackandy


thanks for sharing

moozi75

看看~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Agnes_MJlover

又來了又來了~~~
不要這樣對他好不好!!!!!!!!!!????


謝謝樓主分享和翻譯的朋友,辛苦了!!!

blackandy

---------Part 3英语原文----------
He may well have been the most famous celebrity of all time -- imitated, adored, and revered by fans around the world. But Michael Jackson's conversations with SB reveal a man that almost no-one knew, so wounded by his father's neglect that all he ached for was love.

Michael Jackson: I wanted to become such a wonderful performer that I would get loved back.

SB: You thought if you became a great star, very successful and loved by the world, your father would love you too?


Michael Jackson: Mmhmm.

SB: So you could change him that way.

Michael Jackson: Mmhmm.  I was hoping I could, I was hoping I could get love from other people.  I needed it, real bad, you know?

SB: A guy whose career was world famous and now he's saying "It wasn't ‘cause I love music, it wasn't because I love dancing." It was because I'm so lonely.

Meredith Vieira: Rabbi, how did you come to the conclusion that he wasn't sort of, you know, making up excuses for you too?  "Oh, I'm this way because my father was mean to me"?

SB: You can't fake sincerity. He cried through much of these tapes. He was just gasping for breath at times. I mean, this was a confessional that he had never really undergone.

With surprising honesty -- as you've never heard him before -- Michael Jackson talks candidly about race. He believes his broad appeal to white fans made him suffer more than any famous black star before him.

Michael Jackson: You had Belafonte, you had Sammy, you had Nat King Cole. People loved their music, but they didn't get adulation, they didn't get crying. I was the first one to break the ice, break the mold, where white girls, Scottish girls, Irish girls screaming, "I'm in love with you, I want to -" And that gave a lot of the white press, they didn't like that, and that's why they started the stories.  "He's weird."  "He's gay."  "He sleeps in a hyperbaric chamber."  "He wants to buy the Elephant Man bones" -- anything that turn people against me. They tried their hardest.

In addition to accusing the press of racism, Jackson divulges painful stories about the ugly overtones of race that hovered over his family, long after he became a superstar.

Michael Jackson: My mother - she was pulling out of the market, right, it was a block from my house in Encino and she was in her Mercedes. And this white guy in a car screams out to her, "Go back to Africa, you n***ger."  Just like that.  It hurt me so much that that happened to be mother. Or stories of my brothers in their Rolls-Royces, you know, get out of the car, lock the door, when they come back to the car they would find a key, some guy walked by and scrape off all the paint.

SB: 'Cause it was a black man driving it?

Michael Jackson: A black man driving a Rolls Royce, you know. I just hate anything to do with because the color of a person's skin had nothing to do with the content of their character.

And despite being one of the most influential entertainers of all time, Jackson says he never understood why he still couldn't catch a break from the press, even when he wrote ballads like "earth song" and focused on making the world a better place.

Michael Jackson: I've been an ambassador of goodwill all over the world, spreading this message, did we do heal the world, treaty of all nations, circling this huge globe? What I don't understand is just singing about sex and "I want to get in a hot tub with you baby and rub you all over" and, but I get battered in the press as the weirdo.

Michael Jackson: And the press, they wait--wait with knives, really...

SB: For you to fail?

Michael Jackson: Absolutely.  They try and shred me apart. Because when you are the top-selling artist of all time, the records that are broken, they wait. You're the target now.  Get him down, get him, you know what I mean?

As he opened up to the rabbi, Jackson could sound narcissistic.

Michael Jackson: Going to my shows, it's like a religious experience, because you come out, you go in one person, you come out a different person.

But more often, he sounds anguished and sad. The star who spent his adult life morphing from one look to another, actually admits his own face repulses him.

Michael Jackson: I saw it on the computer, it made me sick when I saw it.

SB: Why?

Michael Jackson: I look like a lizard, I look like, it's horrible. I don't like it, I never like it.  That's why I wish I could never be photographed or seen and I push myself to go to the things that we go to.  

Michael Jackson: I just don't want to look old. I hate to see people grow old, Shmuley.

Meredith Vieira: He didn't want to see himself in the mirror with wrinkles. He had a whole thing about getting older. Did he ever talk to you about plastic surgery?

SB: I used to always tell him that he had to stop. He swore to me he did. But he didn't.

Jackson also shared with the rabbi some disturbing details about his eating habits --  confessing that on his dangerous tour, his friend Elizabeth Taylor literally had to force him to eat.

Michael Jackson: I wouldn't eat. She took the spoon and would put it into my mouth.

SB: Really?



Michael Jackson: When I get really upset or hurt, I don't eat. I go on a food, I just get - until I'm unconscious. Then they started doing it intravenously, you know, because I just, my body breaks down, I won't eat.

And then there were the drugs.  Although Shmuley says he never saw Jackson actually taking them, he did tell the star he was concerned -- especially after one doctor complained that Jackson had asked for a dose of drugs that could kill a horse.

SB: He medicated away all his problems. When a man is slowly making his body into a walking pharmacy, it was so obvious: Michael's drugs were primarily an escape from loneliness

Even back in 2001, Michael Jackson seemed to be drowning in an ocean of despair. In fact, the only thing that seemed to keep him going was his love for children.

SB: So what gave you the strength to persevere?

Michael Jackson:  Believing in children.  Believing in young people. Believing that God gave me this for a reason, to help my babies.

Little did he know how soon that belief -- and one child in particular -- would lead to accusations that this time  would forever tarnish his career.

注：Schmuley Boteach的缩写为SB.为方便文字的撰写特用缩写代替之。

mjerica

我不知道要不要看。。。
那个人人如其名：SB

yanweixingfu

不知道为什么  好心痛....